Starting the next phase of my life

It's the end of July 2012 yet I'm still jobless. Hahaha. It's time to panic a bit but I believe I will get what I want eventually. It's true that it is easier to die than to live, but similarly, we get more gains by living than dying. Therefore, no matter how hard it is, just try to live. No doubt, life is filled with ups and downs but it's the attitude that one holds that is the determining factor. I'm writing this to remind myself to always treasure what I have now instead of constantly seeking for "the better". No matter how much I grumble or bad mouth about YT, I know that he is the one suitable for me. Reason being? Because we are different. If I say that I only like to build sandcastle in the air, he will be the one realising it physically for me. While I only have plans and requirements, he will always execute them diligently and most of the time exceed my expectations. At times, I feel like a float wondering freely (and aimlessly) in the vast broad ocean but he is like a cold steel anchor that pulls me to him and keeps me from wondering. He trains me to be independent yet when I need help, he will always render his service but in a cold manner. (Well, that's just him.) To sum it all, he is nice to me in his own way. I'm lucky to have you in my life. Hope that you won't get sick of my nonsenses so fast... =X