口が利けなくなる

怖い・・・如何したらいい？何もしない方がいい。

今日は全然言えなかった。電話もかけられない。神様、手伝っていただけませんか。

心配した・・・

SKY

If you are troubled, look up into the sky, may be you will feel better.

These 2 nights, the sky was clear.

Thank you stars for cheering me up! I know you are always there for me, tt's why i don't feel so lonely....

Thank you blue sky, cloud and trees...yall paint perfect pictures for me almost everyday to brighten up my spirit.

I felt better on my way home. Thanks Mother Nature.

そばにいるね

A lot of things are going through my mind. Acadamic, CSC, Japanese, Past...To do or not to do? To continue or to give up?

そばにいるね

あなたのこと　

私は今でも思い続けているよいくら時流れて行こうと　

I'm by your side baby いつでもSo.　

どんなに離れていようと心の中ではいつでも一緒にいるけど　

寂しいんだよSo baby please　

ただ hurry back home※

△Baby boy　あたしはここにいるよ　

どこもいかずに待ってるよ

You know dat I love you　

だからこそ　

心配しなくていいんだよ

どんなに遠くにいても

変わらないよこの心

言いたい事わかるでしょ?

あなたのこと待ってるよ△

[SoulJa]

んなことよりお前の方は元気か?　

ちゃんと飯食ってるか?ちくしょう、

やっぱ言えねぇやまた今度送るよ　

俺からのLetter

[青山テルマ]

過ぎ去った時は戻せないけれど　

近くにいてくれた君が恋しいのだけど　

あなたとの距離が遠くなる程に　

忙しくみせていたあたし逃げてたのだけど　

目を閉じる時　

眠ろうとする時　

逃げきれないよ　

あなたの事思い出しては　

一人泣いてたの

(※くり返し)

(△くり返し)

[SoulJa]

不器用な俺　

遠くにいる君伝えたい気持ちそのまま言えずに　

君は行っちまった今じゃ残された君はアルバムの中

[青山テルマ]

アルバムの中　

納めた思い出の日々より　

何げない一時が　

今じゃ恋しいのAnd now　

あなたからの電話待ち続けていた

携帯にぎりしめながら

眠りについたあたしは　

どこも行かないよ　

ここにいるけれど見つめ合いたいあなたのその瞳ねぇわかるでしょ?　

あたし待ってるよ(△くり返し)[SoulJa]

俺はどこも行かないよ　

ここにいるけれど　

探し続けるあなたの顔Your 笑顔　

今でも触れそうだって思いながら手を伸ばせば　

君は(※くり返し×2)

My Japanese is super duper lousy. Completely inferior compared to those who are in NUSJSS or study in NUS. I need to practise more, yet i don't have the courage to speak up. I should start now. 1 week of school has passed and i can see challenges awaiting for me ahead. I'm stress because of the unpredictness of the future and my inferior capabilities. I told myself to be more positive, but easy to say than to exercute. More things are going through my head but i'm expressing lesser. May be this is part of growing. I can't help but to agree with Ed that this is a year of pain. Have pain, have gain. Don't worry, I'm fine. I'm just sorting out what i'm thinking for past few weeks. I'll stay positive and make sure that yall see the usual Siao Za Bo! ^^

First day of SCHOOL

YEAH...The beginning of challenges starts today! The first major challenge i face is to wake up early in the morning and be punctual for lectures and tutorials. Today's first lecture was maths, which started at 8am, and i left the hse at the same time! GG. It was lucky that i had my dad to give me a ride with his motorbike. I don't understand what's wrong with me! I JUST CAN'T HEAR THE ALARM! I woke this morning because i had a nightmare, not the alarm's credit! I'm turning 20 this year and i still have to depend on my mum to wake me up. It's a bad habit since K1 (5 years old). 15 years passed and i don't see any improvement. Guilty. Time to grow up...
It's great to sit with friends during lecture. (FYI, I'm a solo-kia in school, i go lecture alone. I was alone for maths lecture) Physics lecture was fun with Pav, Seah, Shu Yi, Xiang Jun by my side to crack stupid jokes. (Shu yi, you 'induced' me, or u want conduction?) After the 1 hour physics lect, we stayed in LT7 to ballot our tutorial slots. It was crazy planning my timetable. I just hope that everything will turn out well for this sem. *Pray*

Next, we parted as i headed for my EG1108 lecture. Well, sad to say, i was alone again. THROUGHOUT the 2 hour lecture, i was ALONE. I'm getting less and less sociable. I don't think i was like this back in Secondary and JC. WHAT HAPPENED? I don't think i have opened up to my Uni friends yet. (I'm sorry to say this.)

Finally, i have adjusted back to the schooling-mood after 1 sem.

Today was also my first day of school in JCS. MY SENSEI IS DAMN CHIO! Serious! Before i knew that she's my teacher, i stared at her in the toilet. Not because i dislike her, because she's too pretty. I'm so sorry that i couldn't control my eyes, but i usually stare at pretty girls rather than look...(Look too hard and it turns out to be staring) I'm SUPER motivated to attend jap lesson! HAHAHA. Her eyes are sparkling!!! hehehe. (From what i know, i'm still straight.) I want to be someone like her too! hehehe.

ウェイリンちゃんに話した後で、も一回してしりない。手紙を書いて、でましょうか？本当に知らない。如何したらいいですか？神様、手伝ってください！

Bro's Bday`

Happy Birthday loh...

Went back to AJC today with a group of sisters to visit teachers like Mr Ng, Ms Siti, Mrs Soon...I don't think this open hse is a very successful one...Opps...
Went to Cheryl's hse for the first time! Spacious yet Cosy. Enjoy seeing all her miniatures...She's creative! Who will come up with those kinda things? It's great to see "Tony Leung" (her dad) but we felt that he looks more like "Lin Zi Xiang".
For my bro's bday celebration, Instead of going Kushinbo, we went to ichiban boshi. (yes shu yi, ichiban again.) I had a tempura curry which caused me to have indigestion...tt's why i don't really feel like blogging now...okay. Bye

Random Pictures from my HP

Kris and Sherene's Wedding Banquet (17 Dec 2008)
I had very thick make up that night that my mom couldn't even recognise her own daughter...But still, thanks Unnie for the hardwork.

Happy NeW YEAR (1st Jan 2009)

Yeah! I love to countdown at my hse! We could see M'sia's fireworks from my hse's corridor! FYI, tt's Marsiling MRT Station! Dear friends, yall can come to my hse at the end of 2009! We will countdown for 2010!

Clubbing @ Phuture (3rd Jan 2009)

After drinking 1 apple shooter, I wasn't thinking straight...The light was dim and I used a camera photo, which doesn't have a flash light to take picture. -_-''' Dumb. NVM, at least yall can see me~ lol.

Give Blood, Good Deed, Good Karma (4th Jan 2009)

Yeah! Finally my bro went to donate blood for the first time!! Everyone, please donate blood if you are fit enough! It's not as painful as you think. Those staffs are professionals, not like those in SAF. Don't worry!
Cooking Day (6th Jan 2009)

Oh, i cooked new dish again! hahaha! This time round was Japanese dish, Oyako Don, 親子丼. It looked not bad, and tasted okay (definitely edible)...not very delicious as it was quite bland. =( I'll improve. はい、頑張りますよ！

Another dish here was cooked by my mom...やっぱりおいしいね！Delicious. Of course, she's my mom. It's steam fish with Steam Fish Sauce. (SERIOUS, the sauce's name is called STEAM FISH SAUCE.)

家族と秘密

A simple compo tt i wrote...
私の家族は小さいで、四人だけがいます。ちちとははとおにがいます。かぞくで一番大好きな人はははです。彼女はせが低いですが、親切で、いつも家族に頑張ります。そして、彼女は料理が上手で、いろいろの美味しい食べ物を作ることができます。
次、あんちゃんはことし二十二歳で、私と同じの大学へ行きます。彼は世界の中で一番のお兄さんだとおもいます。いつも私のそばにいます。そして、彼の頭がよくて、優しくて、おしゃべりな人です。あんちゃんは歌を歌う事が好きで、テイチューオプラーがとても大好きです。でも、いままで彼は彼女がいません。残念ですね。
それから、私のちちどういう人ですか？悪いちちだと思います。かぞくの事が世話をしないですから、関係は悪いです。彼のせいですから、私たちがびんぼうです。高い不要品をたくさんかいまし。そいう人です。だから、ははとあんちゃんとわたし、3人は強いで、はたらきます。大変ですが、いろいろ事が習いました。
これは私の家族です。

I want to blog about something...
よん年まえに、私たちは親友だった。いつも一緒に遊んで、話した。ちゅうがくせいの時、本当にうれしかったね。でも、今一緒に出掛けるとき、そういう感じはぜんぜん違う。皆さんは変わったと思います。悲しいね。時々「その人も知らない」そいう感じがあるね。全部かわった。私たちはせいちょうした。じきに私たちは働いて、けっこんして、パパとママになります。その時までに、も一緒に出掛けましょうか？答えは知りたくない...自信がないから。

そのとき、ルくんはいつもあたしのそばにいた。かれはいろいろのタレントがありました。ピアーノとフルートができて、うたう事とえがく事がじょうずです。じしんがないから、「あなとの事がすき」いえなかった。よんねん後で、そんなことばも出来ません。このひみつを永遠にかくれよ。えいえんのともだちになった方がいいとおもいますよね。そですね！＾＾これはよんで、分かったら、大変申しあげなかった。いままで、いつもありがとうございました。=)

3-4/1/08 Tuitions & Clubbing session

To accommodate the clubbing outing in the night, i shifted my tuition to 10AM in the morning. It supposed to end at 1.45pm. However, i only left at 3pm because i had my lunch at my tutees' house (my pri school tuition teacher's sons) plus extended teaching. Hence, i missed my Elderly-Befriender's visit. I feel so guilty about it. =( I headed home for a nap from 3.30pm to 6.15pm in order to get myself ready for clubbing!
Met Chris, Jx, Char at MRT station. I was the only one w/o make up! hahaha. I think i was the only gal in the whole club who didn't put on make up. After meeting up with Ed and ZR, we took 2 taxis to Zouk. I quite upset that JM and Wil didn't come. Wasn't it supposed to be a 7Flowers outing...=( But i still enjoyed the whole clubbing session, different from my first experience. (It's great to go with ppl you are close with) Before the actual clubbing session at Phuture started, we went for supper. The rest ate carrot cake and hokkien mee while Chris and I got banana-melon juice and papaya-apple juice respectively. (I ate alot of carrot cake tt morning. No more carrot cake thanks.) I think my drink was the best! hahaha.
We settled at a table under a SPEAKER (-_-) and had tequila shots and apple shooters. In summary, I had 1 and half apple shooters and 1 apple martini. IT's AN APPLE NIGHT for me! Chris drank the most! She just sms-ed me at 11.15am that she's currently having a headache! hahahhhah! I think she had 2 tequila, 3 shooters, 1 white wine, 1 margarita...Although I don't really like the take of apple shooter, I like the burning hot sensation after that. Well, it was quite embarrassing for me as i got A BIT giddy after having 1 shooter. 1 SHOT ONLY...-_-'''. I DON'T DRINK AND I CAN'T! bUT I believe i'll get better. Christine recommended apple martini to me, but sad to say, i couldn't really appreciate it. That's why i needed to take a few slips of sprite after i drank it.

Char and Jx went off earlier at around 12.30am. I'm so sorry JX...don't be sian diao juliet!

At around 2am, Chris and i couldn't take loud music. We took a stroll and shared a cup of instant noodles at a bus-stop nearby. We didn't realise that we were out for about 1hour until we were back to Phuture. (Well, guys, we were thinking of giving yall some time to look for targets to dance with...)

We con'ted dancing under the disco ball. (YA, ME..dancing..WEIRD...and pls don't laugh when u see this line, sisters.) Oh, there were 3 gals from Zi Ling's country nudging vigoursly and it got to our nerves...Chris and Zr started to retaliate by moving more vigoursly. And yah, snowball effect, it was lucky that we didn't get into a fight. *PEACE* Oh, i think i looked at gals more than i look at the guys! (Die, i think something wrong with me...) And those gals were really diff from the gals that i noe in my social circle. Thank God.

Photos:

Char, Chris, Wing and a cup of ice water.... Starring the sunglasses in Phuture

Outside Zouk's toilet. (I'm glowing!)

I love the names tagged for this photo on facebook. 4 of us: Siao Zha Bor (me), Asshole(chris), Shrek(Ed), SuperStar(Zr)

Me on the dance floor...Can't believe it...I didn't stone tt much!

This was the 2nd time I went clubbing. It really felt better to go with friends who are close with you and know how to club. Because of them, i didn't stone so much as compared to my first experience. Chris and I really saw the different sides of the guys. Thanks and Sorry Ed, i think we made you feel awkward. Thanks Zr for being such a gentleman and protected us throughout. Thanks Chris for being such a wonderful companion.

そんな言葉言えないけと、今までいつもありがとう。友達は永遠に！

謹賀新年

あけましておめでとうございます
去年は大変お世話になりありがとうございました。本年もどうぞよろしくお願いします。皆さんのご健康をお祈り申し上げます。
Happy New Year. Thanks for all the kind help from the past year. Please continue to take care of me this year. Wish that everyone is in pink health in 2009. "Celebrating the New Year in Japan also means paying special attention to the "first" time something is done in the new year."
I shall take note of those too!
First New Year Greeting: 00:00 Shao Hong. (He intended to call Wei NING, but he got the wrong person.)
First Sight of Fireworks: 00:00 from my hse corridor I can clearly see M'sia's fireworks.
First Video: 00:04 We got Married-Kangin & Yunji Ep 39
First SMS: 00:31, To Candice, "Your hse there?!" (we were deciding on the location for running)First Outgoing-Call: 00:11, To Meng Xiang, I wanted to wish him "Happy Birthday", but he didn't pick up.
First Song: In with Love by Hwan hee and Hwayobi
First Shower: 03:05
First sport: 08:00, Running with Candice around the neighborhood
First Meal: 08:55, Breakfast: Mee Jiang Kueh, Beehoon with fried noodle, Otah, Fried filet and Milo
First 'I love you': said to Mummy
First Book: English as broken as it is

First visit: 11:15, To Ah-Ma-Jia to deliver Otah and clothes.

First Work: 11:43 Isabel's house for tuition
First MRT ride, bus ride, taxi --> today...from 10:25-11:42 (My uncle drove me to Isabel's house by taxi)

First Outing with Friends: 14:45, Causeway Point with Candice, Pav and Wee
First Blog entry: THIS ONE...^^

Wish list for 2009:
1. Stay Healthy throughout the year
2. Squeeze into 2nd upper Honors class by end of 2009
3. Obtain a Cap of 4.5 for this sem with straight A's (I need to be a chao mugger)
4. Improve my English and Essay Writing
5. Enroll into JCS Intermediate course
6. Continue with my Japanese Intermediate 1 in Hougang Japanese Language School
7. JLPT 3 Distinction
8. Earn more money for my expenses and school fees
9. Forget about him & move on
10. All my students score well in their exams
11. Don' get emo too easily
12. Be more independent and meticulous
13. Be more demure (I need to restore my image)

Wish List II for 2009 (Materialistic obsession)
1. New wallet (Classy kind?)
2. New bagS (backpack, handbag...)
3. New sport shoes
4. Put braces
5. Hoody-T or Jumper
6. Oversea trip in Dec
7. More clothes and accessories.
8. EXILE BALLAD BEST
9. Nakashima's CD
10. Japanese books