三ヶ月後

Time flies. It has been 3 months since my broke up with yew thong. I have thought through a lot during this period. Bit by bit, I have managed to face up the reality and understand more about life. 经一事，长一智。Like a pupa turning into a beautiful butterfly, we have to go through the pain and struggle before we can make that flight. Although I still feel pity about this relationship, I have acknowledged that they were things that both parties had done wrongly and there were things that were beyond control. 命里有时中须有，命里无时莫强求。一切随缘。I worked hard but it didn't work out. Probably it was because we were too different and probably we were both too immature. 

Looking forward, I would like to spend my life with someone who can inspire me and lead me in life. I know I'm not a good leader, so I do need someone who has that firm shoulder to take the responsibility of loving me, protecting me (and family), guiding me and giving me encouragement. I agree that this sounds demanding but in return, I will share his load with him and support him whenever and in whichever way I can. I really pray that I can meet this someone (this someone with a big heart and this someone who I can look up to). 

But, like I said earlier, 一切随缘。Since I'm back to single and available status, I should really take this opportunity to explore. Okay, back to my Japanese book. Wish me luck for tomorrow's exam.