After a hiatus

After a long hiatus, i decided to publish another post on this blog.

I assisted in 2 safety events, 19th LTA Annual Safety Awards Convention and LTA's booth at World Safety Congress, this week and I would like to express my appreciation towards everyone who played a part in making them a success. It requires a team to run the whole show smoothly, taking care of each other's back.

I am also grateful to gain so much insights through these processes, especially about our Total Safety Management Framework and event management. I know I am still lacking but I will continue to be a better person than yesterday.

After the event tear down, I went for Buddhism class and the topic that Venerable brought up intrigued me to write the following post on FB:

"Venerable shared about Buddhist's perspective of writing a will to remove life support (part of passive euthanasia). He said it is actually understandable (he said 合情合理) for people to do so since they have lost the ability to live on their own and they made that choice in order to free their loved ones from emotional and financial burdens.

However, as Buddhism believes in Karma (业) and all the bad happenings are the results of previously committed bad Karma, termination of life support half way is as good as not fully relinquishing the bad Karma. Hence, one has to recognise it, willing to sacrifice and bear the (by that point of time, it would be a little left for this life) "unredeemed" Karma to next life for his/her loved ones and oneself in this life.

So overall, it is understandable for one to make such decision.

I further asked about active euthanasia and Venerable gave a clear answer, "Not acceptable". He went on and cited only a handful of countries in this world legalise euthanasia because of ethical concerns and pressures by various religions. In Buddhist's perspective, it is killing of a life (similar to suicide) and one has yet to relinquish the bad Karma, so it doesn't make a difference as the bad karma will continue to follow you to your next life. I guess the idea is to face our consequences instead of escaping from them.

Well, this is a controversial topic and there are strong arguments on both sides of the debates.  Ultimately, the choice is yours."

And I also asked CH a hypothetical question, "If you are on life support, what will your decision be?" It seemed like a morbid question but I thought it is neccessary for us to be prepared for the unforeseeable circumstance and to better understand our values of life-and-death. Our answers are the same - agreeable to passive euthanasia but not active euthanasia.

Belated 2015 New Year Resolution Post

Looking back at my posts in 2014, i would say time is really the best remedy. The past is a history that I learnt, what's more important is now and future. Looking back at 2014, there many things that have excited me and I'm still proud to share. Firstly, it is my house renovation. A make over of the house and home. Making it more modern and displaying more of our family photos.
Next, are my Korea and Japan trips. I met many great and helpful people in this trip and I couldnt express how grateful I am to have crossed my path with them. It might be a short encounter, but I really appreciate it.
Lastly, i got to know more Japaneses and more people who speak Japanese like a native. They really have my respect. I still have a lot more to go.

1. Know more about myself, what I like and what I want in life. Learn more about my strengths, weaknesses and priority in life.
- A continous journey

2. Travel alone in Japan and climb mount Fuji - Done

3. Participate in a 10km run - signed up but yet to complete

4. Learn how to play 2 songs with violin - Done but forgot

5. Learn how to cook 10 dishes/desserts -to be continued

2015 new year resolution
1. Continue to be a healthy and happy person and spread positive energy to my friends.

2. Be more hardworking at work, in learning Japanese and doing household chore.

3. To have a healthy spending habits. Every month to save $500 cash.

4. Be more neat

早知道

早知道就提早分手。
一年两年三年也好。
太相信一个人，结果受伤的是自己。
四年没什么大不了。
十万没什么大不了。
全部都没什么大不了。
简单的一句不爱了，是最我充足的理由。

回想起来，真的人生如戏。
台湾剧常演到女方帮男友还债，付出后，男方结果还是跟别的女生走了。

爱到底是什么。是强是弱，我不确定。

Marriage

Today, I attended a friend's soleminisation. This made me pondered a bit on the topic "Marriage".

"for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, 'till death do us part."

Most of us focus on the preparation of wedding but how many of us are really prepared for marriage. It is a life long commitment that is not merely about signing that piece of paper, but to really support and accompany each other in wealth, in poor, in sickness and in health. It is always easy to say than to be done. How to love someone so much that you will go the extra mile for that person, care for that person and protect that person?

Looking back at my failed relationship. I do agree that both of us were not mature enough in the relationship. We were both selfish, only looked at things that we want/like and lacked of consideration. Bad experience had taught me well and I grew from it. Someone who love you, will find all ways and means to do something for you. Someone who does not love you, will only find excuses (This applies to myself too). 

The young me was really foolish. Tried my best to accommodate but someone just took it for granted and decided to let me go "for my own good". He really gave excuses whenever I needed him and even breaking up, he did not have the heart to chase me back. I just want to say, if it was really for my own good, you should have loved me, chased me back and protected me. But you didn't because you can't. 

This is not an emo post but more of "Well, this is life. We get shit sometimes." However, something that I'm actually sad about is that I won't be able to look at relationship like I used to. To be honest, I have lost great faith and trust in man. The next person who want to walk into my life, will have a hard time. Probably, if you can walk into my life, you will be the one. 

给自己的鼓励

今天，我一口气跑了4.8公里。中途很想放弃。可是脑海里一直在为自己打气。很庆幸自己没有放弃，证明给自己看 “我没你想象中的那么脆弱。我是行的。”

人生的旅程就是这样：漫长的岁月就像马拉松，有很多艰难想放弃的时候。别人可以帮你，别人也可以遗弃你。外在的因素是这么的难以捉摸，唯有自己最可靠。无论多想放弃，请告诉自己 “不要放弃我，我比你想象的还要坚强”。

伟灵上